Wednesday, August 11, 2010

In which the truth is simple and sad

It's really pretty basic.
I woke up in the middle of the night "wanting" to binge & purge
I just realized, though, that food is not at all what I want.
I want love.
I want someone to hold me really tight and to mean it.
I want a real mom and a real dad who really love me, unconditionally.
I want someone to give me a back-rub and kiss me on the forehead and tell me that everything is going to be okay.
The truth is, I just want love.

3 comments:

  1. i wish i could give you those things. i feel the same. i really do.

    keep your hopes up

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  2. Hey, hun. I'm sorry that you're feeling such strong urges... sleep is to what I look forward to get away from such things. The most important thing, though, is that you realized the truth behind the matter: you are so right about love. Food is not a substitute or solution. And love is what really drives us all, no? You are not crazy for wanting that.

    I'd love to give you a hug and sit down for a chat over coffee (or whatever floats your boat). You certainly deserve it. You are fabulous, my dear, and I absolutely adore you. xoxo

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  3. Hey, hun. I'm sorry that you're feeling such strong urges... sleep is to what I look forward to get away from such things. The most important thing, though, is that you realized the truth behind the matter: you are so right about love. Food is not a substitute or solution. And love is what really drives us all, no? You are not crazy for wanting that.

    I'd love to give you a hug and sit down for a chat over coffee (or whatever floats your boat). You certainly deserve it. You are fabulous, my dear, and I absolutely adore you. xoxo

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