whilst procrastinating on twitter I read something about Demi Lovato going into rehab for bulimia/ emotional issues. I looked Demi up (because i really only vaguely recognized her name) and I found this video that really kind of struck a chord with me. I decided I'd share it with you all.
there's something about this that makes me cringe with sadness. The first thing I notice is that she looks much older than 18- i should know- i know a LOT of eighteen year olds and none of them look like this. She also has some kind of wisdom in her face...perhaps wisdom isn't the right word...age/experience/sadness?
knowing (or thinking) now that she has an eating disorder obviously changes my view on this video. She seems so sweet and fake happy, like she is trying to please everybody. Who wants to "celebrate" their eighteenth birthday with a bunch of five-year-olds who you don't know?
Clearly, I don't know the whole (or even a fraction of) the "whole story", or what this girls' life is like, at all. But there was something sad that struck me about this video. I wanted to just give her a hug when she was standing there being sweet to all of those little girls. And when she saw that there was cake. And when she walks in front of the camera I can't imagine what must be going through her head about her body.
I know that she chose this lifestyle blah blah blah. That's not the point. It's just that she's human and theres something about her that makes me want to give her a hug and tell her it's going to be okay.
i wish the best for her, and for everyone who struggles behind a smile.
okay. back to my great gatsby essay. sorry for the disney channel interlude of sorts...