so...what's my deal yo?

good afternoon faithful bloggees. (If i'm the tutor and your the tutee, and i'm the advisor and you're the advisee, then if i'm the blogger, you're most definitely the bloggee, right? right. settled.)


So i'm home from school today. Home sick.
Although here's the issue- i'm not so sure that i'm sick.
It's just that i have been feeling terrible lately about pretty much everything in life and last night i basically had a total emotional crisis moment and then this morning i woke up and my entire body wouldn't move. 
Ever have one of those freaky dreams where you are trying to move your limbs but they're paralyzed? It was kind of like that. But not a dream. Or at least i don't think it was a dream. And then i was all achey.


And my brain keeps on getting upset whenever i start to think about the things that are going on in my life (ahem- how hard school is right now and how much i wish i had actual friends in high school these days...)
and then my whole mind goes blank and i'm back in empty mode and i don't know where to go from there.


So that's the deal with me.

the way i can tell that most of this is psychological though (even though it's kinda crazy that it's affecting me so physically) is that i really just want to spend today baking this:

(http://www.joythebaker.com/blog/2010/02/bread-and-butter/)

i've never made bread before. ever.
bread is no easy task, folks. (even for a seasoned baker like moi) <---kidding. duh.
but i don't know about you but i'm pretty sure that if i was coming down the the flu or sars or something then i would probably not be feeling super ambitious and like i wanted to toil over some yeast and flour in the kitchen.


In order to at least save myself the added guilt of feeling like i'm skipping school so i can make bread, i'm gonna skip that activity for today. (and most likely forever. i mean, how could i possibly not come out of that feeling like a failure when my predecessor was Joy, baker extraordinaire?) I hope she doesn't mind that i clearly have a huge out-of-control bloggy crush on her. oops.


ok well now my head hurts. like really hurts. as in not a euphemism for i'm upset. so i think i'm going to go make myself some soup. and maybe nap or watch some bad tv.
if i take any pictures of my soup and it turns out looking warhol-esque or if anything interesting happens in my very uninteresting day, i'll be sure to share with ya'll.
happy friday :)
R