The long-awaited end of summer

Hey all!

So i want to start off by apologizing for falling off the face of the earth these past couple of weeks. 

I'm back- hopefully to stay. 

I've had a lot lot lot going on. With the start of school (on Monday, eek!) , and all that's been happening @ home and such, i just haven't had very much time or energy to blog.

My entire life is kind of under construction right now. This has been a long, long summer. Here's a list of all the things that have happened this summer:

• I started this blog!
• I finished Day treatment after i got home from my RTC
• I "broke-up" with my old therapist
• Started practicing yoga (more) regularly

'Cause meditating on train tracks is like totally normal & safe

• I re-discovered my lovely New York City, even after I was sure LA was the place for me (probs still is...)
• I got my nose re-pierced!
• I learned how to bake

These are what we call "Joel Cookies" in my family. Named after my dad, and they are much more like a blondie than a cookie...

This delicious Cookie Dough Ball doesn't actually require baking! It's amazing! Got it from Joy, the baker

• I went to L.A. and had an amazing time- seeing people who i LOVE and looking at some colleges 
• I tried some new foods (sweetbreads, almond butter, chocolate dreams pb!) 



Don't forget the Montaco Truck! I went here with my brother and his girlfriend last weekend. It was great, fresh, Mexican food


• I rediscovered my favorite book ever, "The Catcher in the Rye"
• I spent a LOT of time with my family, more than I wanted to, and probably more than most would consider to be psychologically healthy

A pic of me and Jake (my bro), chilling on the steps at our beach house

Aside from all of those activities that I did, I really accomplished a lot this summer.

I survived New York City heat, which is no small feat, especially for a girl like me, who tends to wear tank tops in the dead of winter. I also did a lot of really intense things, too. I transitioned back home after a long stay in residential treatment, back to an environment that I was terrified of re-entering. I made a big decision about school and education and the next two years of my life. I re-learned how to live in my home, but this time, without the safety of my eating disorder to fall back on. I binged and purged, but figured out, for the first time ever, how to pull myself back out again, even when things are rough. I learned how to be real with people, especially with myself. Most importantly, I lived my life this summer and although it wasn't the best, I'm thinking (well, hoping) it can only go up from here.

xxx

Rose