Saturday, September 11, 2010

The long-awaited end of summer

Hey all!
So i want to start off by apologizing for falling off the face of the earth these past couple of weeks. 
I'm back- hopefully to stay. 
I've had a lot lot lot going on. With the start of school (on Monday, eek!) , and all that's been happening @ home and such, i just haven't had very much time or energy to blog.
My entire life is kind of under construction right now. This has been a long, long summer. Here's a list of all the things that have happened this summer:
  • I started this blog!
  • I finished Day treatment after i got home from my RTC
  • I "broke-up" with my old therapist
  • Started practicing yoga (more) regularly
'Cause meditating on train tracks is like totally normal & safe
  • I re-discovered my lovely New York City, even after I was sure LA was the place for me (probs still is...)
  • I got my nose re-pierced!
  • I learned how to bake
These are what we call "Joel Cookies" in my family. Named after my dad, and they are much more like a blondie than a cookie...
This delicious Cookie Dough Ball doesn't actually require baking! It's amazing! Got it from Joy, the baker
  • I went to L.A. and had an amazing time- seeing people who i LOVE and looking at some colleges 
  • I tried some new foods (sweetbreads, almond butter, chocolate dreams pb!) 
  • Don't forget the Montaco Truck! I went here with my brother and his girlfriend last weekend. It was great, fresh, Mexican food
  • I rediscovered my favorite book ever, "The Catcher in the Rye"
  • I spent a LOT of time with my family, more than I wanted to, and probably more than most would consider to be psychologically healthy
A pic of me and Jake (my bro), chilling on the steps at our beach house

Aside from all of those activities that I did, I really accomplished a lot this summer.

I survived New York City heat, which is no small feat, especially for a girl like me, who tends to wear tank tops in the dead of winter. I also did a lot of really intense things, too. I transitioned back home after a long stay in residential treatment, back to an environment that I was terrified of re-entering. I made a big decision about school and education and the next two years of my life. I re-learned how to live in my home, but this time, without the safety of my eating disorder to fall back on. I binged and purged, but figured out, for the first time ever, how to pull myself back out again, even when things are rough. I learned how to be real with people, especially with myself. Most importantly, I lived my life this summer and although it wasn't the best, I'm thinking (well, hoping) it can only go up from here.
xxx
Rose 

6 comments:

  1. Rose, I am glad that you are back!!! No need to apologize though, it sounds like you have been very busy! You should be so proud of all you accomplished this summer- and good for you for having such a positive and optimistic attitude towards your future!!! If you can accomplish all that you already have, you can do anything. :-)

    Thanks for your comments on my blog, by the way! Agreed- nutella=one of the best parts of recovery. And you should definitely make a "progress list" if you want to!

    <3 Keep up the awesome work!! You inspire me!

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  2. "I binged and purged, but figured out, for the first time ever, how to pull myself back out again, even when things are rough"

    THAT--RIGHT THERE, rose...THAT is recovery. recovery is not being perfect, or never engaging in behaviors. it is realizing when you've slipped & pulling yourself out.
    I'm so proud of you!

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  3. Rose, all of that sounds wonderful! I am so glad that you have enjoyed your summer. You have truly accomplished a lot, and you deserve to be proud of yourself! Keep it up, beautiful girl. You have come so far, and you're absolutely right: it can only go up from here!

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  4. Forever- thank YOU for your comments on MY blog! They make me smile, always! I'm def going to make a progress list soon, totally inspired by yours :)
    Lauren- thanks babe, you're so right. it's good to see it spelled out. that IS IT. That IS recovery. need to rmember that one. <3 you.
    Amanda- you're so sweet! Thank you for your positivity and encouragement, same goes for you, too!

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  5. I'm so glad i found your blog! Did you just start recovery too? I started a little over a month ago. I'm glad summer is over too! It was a little too hot for me and i prefer colder weather better. Do you have a baking blog too?

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  6. Rose, all of that sounds wonderful! I am so glad that you have enjoyed your summer. You have truly accomplished a lot, and you deserve to be proud of yourself! Keep it up, beautiful girl. You have come so far, and you're absolutely right: it can only go up from here!

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